Yesterday Ris3y announced his departure from Twitch with a final stream. It was a one hour long stream which he said was directed at his subscribers and followers. It was a bold and a tough decision for him, as he mentioned.
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Ris3y revealed that he had been suffering from a combination of two rare diseases, which he did not name. The diseases had taken a toll on him both physically and mentally. He had to undergo 16 major surgeries, which left him in constant and excruciating pain. He also opened up about his struggles with depression and mental health, revealing that he had attempted suicide various times. His decision to stop streaming came when his mental health further deteriorated a few months ago, as he informed on the stream. Ris3y now plans to take steps to improve his mental health and physical health.
But there was another shocking revelation that he made which shook his followers and subscribers. He said, “When I was 14 years old, I went through a major surgery. I found out that I would not live for more than twenty years from that point.
“The chances of living more than that were dependent on luck.
“From my 14th surgery (at the age of 14) I have had excruciating amount of pain for every second of my life. Pain that you cannot even fathom.
“I had to learn to live with that pain.”
Speaking about his plans for the future, he said that he will not be returning to the gaming industry. “After I am done with my vacation, I plan to fix my mental health, join group therapy sessions and try to get rid of the alters that I have created, and then fix my physical health.
Once all of this is done and I still have energy left, then maybe I will start working again. But If I do, it won’t be in the gaming industry.”
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Ris3y’s stream obviously sparked a conversation in the Indian community. He left with some views about YouTube gaming, how it was inferior to Twitch and boy did a lot of people get burnt. In a now deleted post, a popular Indian YouTube Gaming streamer, compared his stats tor Ris3y’s, trying to undermine him. He failed to take into account that getting views on YouTube is actually easier than getting views on Twitch, owing to various factors like the user count and the popularity of the platform. (Seriously, if you don’t know this basic thing, you shouldn’t be allowed to stream. Hell, a video I uploaded when I was 9 years old of my grandpa snoring got around 100 views.) Also, as Ris3y mentioned, earning revenue on YouTube is way tougher than Twitch (for streaming). I doubt he has earned as much as Ris3y.
In another ugly turn, an eSports Specialist at Red Bull, said that Ris3y was faking it. He said it on the streamer’s post. It is ugly because Ris3y had a professional disagreement with Red Bull, and looking at the comments it feels that it was taken personally by the employee. Seriously, does Red Bull not train its employees?
There were certain other posts on FB by people trying to undermine him, ignoring the fact that Ris3y worked all these years through a fatal disease, also building up the community and helping other streamers and gamers grow. Which is more than I can say for the people mentioned. And Ris3y has done all of this from scratch, without shoutouts from a popular Indian YouTube creator whose content is based on homophobia and transphobia.
I would like to conclude by saying that mental health diseases are indeed real, and in some cases cause more discomfort than physical diseases. I myself suffer from severe anxiety disorder and have taken steps to improve my condition. There is no shame in admitting it and looking for help. In fact it takes a shit ton of courage. If you or anyone you know suffers from depression or is suicidal, please contact the suicide helplines in this article here.